With every year that passes I’ve grown to discover the patterns of my body that many people can probably relate to. Come January, nothing fits, and I usually have to wear oversized clothes and leggings until most of the holiday weight has been worked off. From Halloween candy, Thanksgiving meals, Christmas parties to excessive drinking during New Year’s Eve, it’s no wonder why every January I’m anywhere between 10-20 pounds heavier and my jeans no longer fit comfortably.
While everyone created hype for the term “summer bod,” I’m fully confident that “winter bod” is another phenomenon that occurs too. There is also the saying that “summer bodies are made in the winter,” and I’m trying live by this phrase by conducting a massive overhaul on my health as a whole, from diet to physical activity.
Naturally with the holidays just passing I’ve gained some holiday weight, but it’s much more than usual. Moving into a new home after living with my parents who were total health nuts was a shock to my lifestyle. My diet now currently consists of mostly carbs with a side of oily or fried food… which clearly isn’t healthy. I’ve acknowledged that I’ve put on the pounds and surprisingly I’m taking it better than I thought I would, especially for having an extensive history of body dysmorphia. Although I’ll admit, I also have been extremely avoidant about looking at my own naked body in front of the mirror. Of course I feel a little sad, but I try to brush it off and reassure myself that this is all just temporary because this lifestyle will not continue as my weight gain was a result of a transitional phase in my life. And besides, my body type was never thin, even at my smallest. I’ve learned to embrace my wide hips, thighs and calves. I have a pear-shape and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
With a healthier mindset, my main worry is my health, especially long-term. I’ve always been extremely sensitive to gluten and carbs. It was absolute hell recovering from bulimia as my digestive system was completely trashed and could not digest any meat without trouble. I either threw it up or wouldn’t have a bowel movement for weeks. I’m much better now, but the food intolerances are still very much present, and I definitely feel the consequences if I have a stream of unhealthy meals.
With all of the overindulging, rich foods and fast food, I’m feeling like complete crap lately. Along with clothes fitting too tight I’ve also been sluggish, irritable, permanently bloated and stressed. My skin is breaking out as a result of this unhealthy diet too.
I always started getting in shape for the summer too late – rather, started getting into shape during summer. I’d finally obtain a summer bod when winter approached and then gained it all back over the holidays. This cycle has become such a drag for me and I’d like to break it for once and for all.
I’ve always been the person to go away for a while and come back thinner, and then a few months later, heavier again. I’ve yo-yo dieted so much throughout my adult life and I’d really like to stay a consistent weight, just to put my body issues to rest.
This is one huge step, but I’m excited to get back to my healthy habits and stay there, once and for all!
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